I feel so lost and confused. I don't know what I want to do with myself. I think I'm having an identity crisis. I don't know what I want anymore. Please help me.
When I was younger, I wanted to be an actress. I felt like it was what I was meant to do. Every so often I get the acting bug itch. I think I'm getting one now because I'm wondering if I could do it. What do I have to lose besides a ton of money on other things? Not to mention I will probably be rejected 100's of times. I just wish someone could "discover" me in a supermarket or something.
I like teaching, but I'm concerned about staying at this school. The principal doesn't appear to have any respect for our contract. Teachers have one of the most thankless jobs there are, not to mention, we're underpaid. The least she could do is respect us and our contract.
I still like the idea of owning my own business too. I like creating things. I like taking materials and turning them into something better.
I'm so confused, Eve Believes. I'm even questioning if I want to keep trying to have a baby right now. I know I can doing any of the things as a mom, I just feel so conflicted. I don't know what I want and I hate that feeling. Since you can see the bigger picture, please guide me to what I should do or who I should be.
I love you and miss you always.
Love,
Mommy
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