I am currently in bed. I should be educating the youth of America, but instead I am curled up under my blanket with my tablet, wishing my head ache and stomach pain would go away. I think it is safe to say that my body is not a fan of the letrozole the doctor put me on. Stupid body. You like what I tell you like (foot stomp) dammit!
For most of the past 24 hours I have been in the fetal position clenching my stomach. I've taken this medication in the past, but this dose is doubled what I took before. I guess one of the side effects is gas pain/bloating, the kind over the counter medication does not help with, the kind that leaves a 30 year old in the fetal position hoping this dang iui works the first time because this stinks. I tried everything too. Yoga (that was painful), walking, drinking water, eating crackers, hot baths, over the counter medication, and the list goes on. Sunday Fun Day I think not.
After that episode, I am left today with a pounding headache and gurgling tummy. Today is my last dose of the medication, fingers cross it gets better and not worse! Thank goodness I am going to acupuncture today. My acupuncturist will fix me right up. If you would have told me a few years ago I would be going to an acupuncturist, I would have laughed at you because me and needles do not mix. Now, I can tell when I miss a week. Still not a fan of needles, but giving birth to you gave me a whole new perspective.
Before my body decided to be mean to me, your daddy and I worked in the garden! Before we were working with pallets, and now we have decided to work with cinder blocks. It is still your Alice in Wonderland theme and each plot will have the color scheme of a character from the Disney cartoon. We've been weeding and putting down mulch. The wonders of read mulch... We have completed the Red Queen plot and put mulch all around the tree. The next plot will be the Cheshire Cat. I wish this was your nursery theme instead of the garden theme, and I am trying to appreciate the joy of using my creativity this way to honor you. I hope you look on the garden with pride. Except last summer, don't look on with pride then, it was a mess. And really now, you can look at the tree with pride, and the red queen plot with pride, and the trees behind it with pride. The rest of it you may look on with dismay and say "hop to it, mommy." But really you should probably not say that to me either because I am the mom and you're the baby. Just know I love you and I am fixing the garden up to grow things in and hopefully your future siblings will appreciate it.
I think of you and love you always.
Love,
Mom
For most of the past 24 hours I have been in the fetal position clenching my stomach. I've taken this medication in the past, but this dose is doubled what I took before. I guess one of the side effects is gas pain/bloating, the kind over the counter medication does not help with, the kind that leaves a 30 year old in the fetal position hoping this dang iui works the first time because this stinks. I tried everything too. Yoga (that was painful), walking, drinking water, eating crackers, hot baths, over the counter medication, and the list goes on. Sunday Fun Day I think not.
After that episode, I am left today with a pounding headache and gurgling tummy. Today is my last dose of the medication, fingers cross it gets better and not worse! Thank goodness I am going to acupuncture today. My acupuncturist will fix me right up. If you would have told me a few years ago I would be going to an acupuncturist, I would have laughed at you because me and needles do not mix. Now, I can tell when I miss a week. Still not a fan of needles, but giving birth to you gave me a whole new perspective.
Before my body decided to be mean to me, your daddy and I worked in the garden! Before we were working with pallets, and now we have decided to work with cinder blocks. It is still your Alice in Wonderland theme and each plot will have the color scheme of a character from the Disney cartoon. We've been weeding and putting down mulch. The wonders of read mulch... We have completed the Red Queen plot and put mulch all around the tree. The next plot will be the Cheshire Cat. I wish this was your nursery theme instead of the garden theme, and I am trying to appreciate the joy of using my creativity this way to honor you. I hope you look on the garden with pride. Except last summer, don't look on with pride then, it was a mess. And really now, you can look at the tree with pride, and the red queen plot with pride, and the trees behind it with pride. The rest of it you may look on with dismay and say "hop to it, mommy." But really you should probably not say that to me either because I am the mom and you're the baby. Just know I love you and I am fixing the garden up to grow things in and hopefully your future siblings will appreciate it.
I think of you and love you always.
Love,
Mom
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